Beside me all the way!

So much has happened since the last post. My precious Kevin is now 15 years old. It does not seem possible, what an icredible blessing you are to me. My gift for God, Kevin from heaven, I thank the Lord everyday for you. I have and am learning so much thru you. Since the day ofd your birth I have prayed for you and for your future bride and her family,now what a joy to see that you have made a vow of purity and are praying for your future bride and her family as well. the Lord is preparing your heart to become a husband and father one day. I am amazed at the man you are becoming. When I look at all 6ft 3in of you I still can see the 8lb 9oz 21 1/2 inch baby I held for the first time July 14,1993. Has it really been 15 years? The time has flown, and I have cherished every moment of it. I did not plan on being a single mom with a 6 month old baby, but God was not taken unaware and He has been with us every step of the way, and what an exciting way it has been. He has been faithful.
I am amazed by your compassion for others and by the sweetness of your heart. Your willingness to help others and to serve is such a sweet song to my heart. Dear Kevin, you are a blessing to your mother, and it is my great joy in being called Mom.
Something else has happened that I cannot say I was joyous about, as those closest to me know I have had along running fear of doctors, and I avoid them at all costs. Well God does not give us a spirit of fear right? Well I have had chronic pain now for about 8 years, but the time since just about a week before Memorial Day has been at an all time high, and I just could not take anymore. So with much prompting and the love of the Body of Christ , I finally surrendered and went to the doctor's. Thank you, LuCinda for going with me, and to your family, who let me borrow their mom, at 48 I needed a mom myself to be with me. Well, I now have some direction and answers, I am type 2 diabetic and possible fibromyalgia and possibly some other stuff. We are working on the diabetes first.I am on medication now and with some direction, and help and support it looks as though I may have some help in my ongoing battle with my weight. I have tried everything I could find, turns out that my own body has been working against me. Wow, who would have thought? Then I get to thinking, isn't that how I have been when I follow sin? I profess Christ and then I work against Him when I sin. I must fall on my face daily at the foot of the cross and thank God for His faithfulness to me, when I am not so faithful. What a truly Awesome God. Such amazing grace and love He has shown me, and what a joy to know that He is beside me all the way.