In God We Trust.

As we are preparing for the "Colorado Homeschool Day at the Capitol".
I have been thinking a lot about our theme this year and what it means to me. My son and I are Chairing the committee for the displays and the first time ever poetry contest. Kev is also very involved with the skits and teaching for the younger children. It is a joy to see him blooming and coming into his own. Our theme for this year is "In God We Trust"
I wonder, What does this really mean? Do I totally trust Him? do I trust in myself and then scream like a little child "Daddy Help!", when I have made a total mess of things? Have I turned my children and my finances and every aspect of my life over to Him, or do I still have a death grip on my life and loves?
I am learning that God does not tempt me, but that He does test me. In the midst of my trials am I like Job or like his wife. Do I praise Him even in the midst of the trial or am I tempted to "curse God and die?" As I read the Psalms, I see so much written about the trials. As a matter of fact the Bible is filled with trials and tests. Old and New Testaments a like are filled with the trials and tests of God's people and even of the Saviour Himself. God says He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, so why am I so shocked that there are trials and tests in my life? God loves me and I should count it all joy. He loves me enough to stretch and grow me. He is refining me, and drawing me to Himself. Instead of feeling picked on, abused and rejected, I pray I will see it for what it is. The Most High, Supreme, God, Loves me and calls me His child. I have been adopted and I am a full heir. It is my own selfish, sinful pride that tempts me, but it is my Loving, Sovereign Lord Who tests me. Sin is my choice and is an abomination. Tests are the Lord refining and purifying me.
This may all seem very obvious to some people, but I am a little slow sometimes and so this is mind boggling to me. I think I have grip on the whole concept and then I see it goes even deeper.
Can I truly say In God I trust, or is it more honest to say I am still learning to trust? He is worthy and it is His due. I believe that it must start in the hearts and lives of men and women, then our children see by example and then our nation.
I am still processing this and the Lord is still working on me with this one, so I am sure there will be more in regards to this. Right now I am overwhelmed by all that is running through my heart and head. So I will have to continue with this over time.
All I do know for sure is that I am so grateful He loves me and that I not He, have come up short and lacking.