Merry Christmas!

I say Merry Christmas with a joy and awe I have never known before. I am so where I need to be at this time in my life. I am stuck in awe of the Awesomeness of God. For the first time in my life I have joy at this time of year. I know that sounds strange, but it is true, at age 48 I for the first time have joy.Growing up from about Oct 29,(mom's birthday- Valentines Day) our home was a virtual battle zone. Oh we looked good from the outside but inside was a totally different picture. As an adult it wasn't any better. December 12,(many years ago) my beloved went home to the Lord. Pain and suffering are the things I always associated with this time of year.
This year is so different, the Lord has put joy, real joy in my heart. I'm not talking giddy schoolgirl silly, that passes just as quickly as it comes, but joy. The kind that is with you all the time. It is there when you wake up and when you go to sleep, it is there when you are doing something for someone else or just washing dishes. This is the joy that passes all understanding and just leaves you in awe of God's righteousness and goodness. It is the joy that comes when you know you are loved ,loved by God who loves you because it pleases Him to do so.
I am in the best place I have ever been in in my life and I pray that I stay right here in the arms of THE ONE Who truly loves me.