Sorry

It has been along time since I have updated my blog. I am sorry. A lot has happened, I will tell you some of it.
First my old 1988 GMC Jimmy finally bit the dust, it has now gone to the junk yard( final resting ground for all old tired cars.) With the help and guidance of a wonderful Deacon and his wife from my church I now have a very nice, 1999 Honda Odyssey. What a blessing.
Now we are seriously looking to move to Castle Rock to be closer to our church family. I have an online sewing business, I have been working very hard to get up and running. Please check it out. I will be adding pictures to some of the items in the next few days, and I am adding new product all the time. www.bloomersnmore.com
I have also been feeling a bit overwhelmed, I have been thinking a lot about when my own dear husband went home to the Lord. Sometimes it is very difficult to be a widow, single mom, lonely and facing each new day without someone special to share it with. This summer and now fall, 3 wonderful, precious young ladies in our church either have or are preparing to marry. It is a wonderful time, it is also very painful to know that I will never again gaze into the eyes of my beloved, hold his hand, hear his voice or feel his hand in the small of my back, as we stand side by side. I long to hear his voice of reason and wisdom, and to know that he truly had our best at heart. I yearn to hear his sweet baritone voice as he sang the "Lord's Prayer" Sometimes the pain is so real and intense it takes my breath away, yet I know that one day I will be where he is, because we both love and serve the same Lord. I know that he is singing praises to the Lord and I would not want him away from there for even one moment, but I miss him so.
I also know that the Lord says He is husband to the widow and father to the fatherless. And I am grateful beyond words and there is comfort in that. Yet sometimes I long to have my beloveds arms around me and to hear the sound of his heartbeat, strong and steady. This is just a small peice of what has been going on with me , and there is more, yet I know I am not alone.
Thank you for letting me ramble.