Leaky –Eye Syndrome
Fact or Fiction
Nancy Kidwell
7/21/06
According to my dear friend and Sister-in-Christ (Stephanie), this is a real syndrome, and I have it. No, she is not a Doctor, but she has not only diagnosed but also named this ailment. Okay, she has known me for a few years now and she does speak to me almost every day, so, maybe she might have something here, but please don’t tell her that.
I do cry a lot, I choke up at the smallest thing and I even laugh till I cry. (Pattern? Maybe) But there is a joy, a real deep down, where did this come from, all the way past your toes joy in my life. And a gratitude that goes way past attitude, and Peace, unthinkable, unstoppable, unexplainable Peace. Now don’t for one minute think that my life is without ups and downs, twists and turns and loopdy-loops. What I am saying is that WHATEVER happens, God always brings me back to His peace and His joy.
When I write, I cry, when I read the WORD, I cry, when I hear or sing praises to the Lord, I cry. When I am disobedient, and or don’t write, I cry, when I’m upset, I cry, when I pull away from the Lord, I cry. (Pattern again?)
Tears are precious and I was taught that tears and emotions were signs of weakness and therefore wrong. I can tell you that when I am weak, He is strong, and that my Lord, my Savior, my Jesus wept. When was the last time? we wept for His sake, for His love, for His children?
I have wept for my own pain, for my breaking heart when my beloved went home to the Lord. I wept when my children were gone. I wept when all was lost and I stood naked, bruised, bloody and beaten at the foot of the Cross. I wept as my Savior washed me with His Blood. I wept as He called me His own. I wept as my name was written in the “Lamb’s Book of Life”.
I am learning to weep for His lost and dying children. He has given me emotion, real emotion and a burden for others. So if I do indeed have “Leaky-Eye Syndrome”, I tell you it is all His fault. He is giving me His Love and His Compassion for others. I Thank Him. I pray that He will teach me to truly weep for His lost and dying children, and that He will see fit to use me
however He chooses to reach them for Him.
I want to be found willing as Mary was in Luke 1:38 LB “Mary said; I am the Lord’s servant, and I am willing to do whatever He wants.”
Sadly often times I find myself questioning and rebelling.Please Lord continue the good “leaks” You have begun in me.
Fact or Fiction
Nancy Kidwell
7/21/06
According to my dear friend and Sister-in-Christ (Stephanie), this is a real syndrome, and I have it. No, she is not a Doctor, but she has not only diagnosed but also named this ailment. Okay, she has known me for a few years now and she does speak to me almost every day, so, maybe she might have something here, but please don’t tell her that.
I do cry a lot, I choke up at the smallest thing and I even laugh till I cry. (Pattern? Maybe) But there is a joy, a real deep down, where did this come from, all the way past your toes joy in my life. And a gratitude that goes way past attitude, and Peace, unthinkable, unstoppable, unexplainable Peace. Now don’t for one minute think that my life is without ups and downs, twists and turns and loopdy-loops. What I am saying is that WHATEVER happens, God always brings me back to His peace and His joy.
When I write, I cry, when I read the WORD, I cry, when I hear or sing praises to the Lord, I cry. When I am disobedient, and or don’t write, I cry, when I’m upset, I cry, when I pull away from the Lord, I cry. (Pattern again?)
Tears are precious and I was taught that tears and emotions were signs of weakness and therefore wrong. I can tell you that when I am weak, He is strong, and that my Lord, my Savior, my Jesus wept. When was the last time? we wept for His sake, for His love, for His children?
I have wept for my own pain, for my breaking heart when my beloved went home to the Lord. I wept when my children were gone. I wept when all was lost and I stood naked, bruised, bloody and beaten at the foot of the Cross. I wept as my Savior washed me with His Blood. I wept as He called me His own. I wept as my name was written in the “Lamb’s Book of Life”.
I am learning to weep for His lost and dying children. He has given me emotion, real emotion and a burden for others. So if I do indeed have “Leaky-Eye Syndrome”, I tell you it is all His fault. He is giving me His Love and His Compassion for others. I Thank Him. I pray that He will teach me to truly weep for His lost and dying children, and that He will see fit to use me
however He chooses to reach them for Him.
I want to be found willing as Mary was in Luke 1:38 LB “Mary said; I am the Lord’s servant, and I am willing to do whatever He wants.”
Sadly often times I find myself questioning and rebelling.Please Lord continue the good “leaks” You have begun in me.
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